I have been busy with a lot of real-life issues in the past couple months, so this blog has been suffering as a result. I think this is going to be more of a random blog more than anything else. I’ll just post thoughts I think of randomly and happen to remember when I’m at a computer, or things I find interesting, etc.
I’ll try and keep things updated from now on, and feel free to call me out if you think I’m slacking.
I have decided to take this blog in another direction. Now it will be mostly for posting quotes, pictures, etc that I find funny, interesting, whathaveyou. Though when the inspiration reaches me I will post a serious philosophical piece. You all have had fair warning.
Now that that’s over with, I will post several satirical pictures regarding the upcoming election.
Prepare your diaphram.
They all make me chuckle ^_^
I’m tired of posting personal things on my blog. It just seems like that no matter what I post it only represents what I’m feeling at one point in my life. It’s most likely going to change, and the thing is it will change sooner than one might think. So please excuse me from my personal post, because they most likely do not represent what is going on in my brain right now, or sometime in the future.
The irony of this post is that my opinion about this will probably change as well.
Since I’ve returned from my freshman year at college, I’ve been doing a lot of things. I work everyday, Monday-Saturday 7am-11am and Sunday at 9, and sometimes in at night, but those days vary. But on Sundays I go in at 8 to finish work before going to church which starts at 9:30. But I never seem to finish in time to shower and make it to church on time. So I end up going just to the Sunday School hour. Now this week I didn’t finish in time and I can’t go to sunday school because my mom is leaving on vacation with her sisters (my aunts) for a week today, and me and my immediate family is taking her to my aunt’s house to say goodbye (They’re driving my aunt’s car).
Work seems to interfere with my church life and the friends I have there more and more lately, and I feel like I’m falling more and more out of the loop with them. And I mean these are basically lifetime friendships, and I feel like I’m losing them.
I’m leaving now.
“Soul Mate”
Insomnia drives me to late nights.
Thoughts of her.
I couldn’t stop if I tried.
But I don’t want it to end.
I feel like never before.
I want to hold her close.
Never letting go.
Sweet embrace.
Our hearts beat in sync.
Lips meet.
Two bodies.
One soul.
Why is it that one simple text can take you from the top of the freaking world down to the lowest trench in the ocean. Thats where I feel I should be. I don’t want to feel like this. Let me rephrase that.
“Do you know whats its like getting up every morning
feeling hopeless,
feeling like the love of your life is waking up with the wrong man,
but at the same time,
hoping that she still finds happiness,
even if its never gonna be with you.” -Hitch
I’m freaking out. I hate feeling like this. But there’s such a connection and a chemistry that I KNOW that it will work out. I’m just so impatient.
“Anything easy isn’t really worth anything.” Her words not mine.
God, please speed up time.
Another personal post, sorry 
So it turns out the girl I was kinda interested in has a boyfriend, and they’ve been dating for like 2 years or something. I’m extremely happy for them. I don’t know the guy. Like I said before, I want to be friends with her, before anything else would happen. I don’t wish that she would break up with the guy, I just want to be friends and see where that goes. She actually didn’t know if she was going to stay with this guy, but she recently chose to stay with her boyfriend.
Now I’m confused because she likes me and I like her, but I have no idea what to do because of the whole boyfriend situation. And she’s told me she can’t stop thinking about me and running scenarios through her head about stuff we are going to do or might do, and the same thing is going on in my head about her. I’m not sure if I need advice as much as I need to get this off my chest and into words. Maybe not well written, but words nonetheless.
This post is not full of inspiration, nor will it entertain you. It won’t give advice, or change your mind about something. It’s topic is not political, nor religious, nor social. It’s just a plain old personal post.
So I recently attended a party of sorts and had a great time. I also met a girl there. She’s smart, funny, pretty, and an all around awesome person. I made the mistake of assuming that she had a facebook or myspace or even AIM… but she doesn’t. The only way I can contact her is via phone. So I talked to her friend, trying to get her number. Her friend was hesitant, which I understand, so I suggested that I give the friend my number to give to this girl. Her friend said she gave the girl the number, but it’s been 4 days, and no text from the girl. What is this to blame for? Forgetfulness? Avoidance? I don’t know. All I’m interested in right now is to get to know this girl. Sure I’m interested in her, but thats not my primary concern. I would rather get to know her and stay friends then not get to know her at all.
Please, do you have any advice you can offer me? I tend to be the disperser of advice, but I need some consultation. Help?
“My cousin in Tibet is an illiterate subsistence farmer. By accident of birth, I was raised in the West and have a Ph.D. The task of our generation is to cut through the illusion that we inhabit separate worlds. Only then will we find the heart to rise to the daunting but urgent challenges of global disparity.”
–Losang Rabgey, Ph.D.
National Geographic Emerging Explorer and co-founder of Machik, a nonprofit helping communities on the Tibetan plateau.
